Preparations, and future plans

I've been using my mornings during the week to prep for some down time due to a simple surgery. From researching writing grants, disability pay, canceling what I don't need in my life, I've still found time for a few moments of peace.

To be honest, I'm in a long sleeve shirt, yoga pants (I did my little fifteen minute stretch/breathing exercise), and slippers sitting outside ENJOYING the crisp, cool air. I almost wish it was hot cocoa and not coffee in my mug. 

My only concern right now is that the surgery does happen. I have to get a blood test the week before my pre-op to make sure I can have surgery. What concerns me is that for some odd reason they find I can't and my mom has already gotten a plane ticket out here. That is what I'm verbally and internally trying to "let go and let God" this morning.

I also realized something unrelated this morning: I used to be a bit of a jealous person. Today, I'm not. I'm happy for the people I know succeeding in the same things I'm striving for, to be, etc. I'm ENCOURAGED instead, and that is so welcome. What a burden I didn't know I had that has been lifted! 

I also realize I have learned so many things in the last 20 months (yes, before the pandemic) is that stress played a major factor in my life - way more than I originally thought. Though I was forcibly but kindly encourage to take two weeks off in Dec 2019-Jan 2020, it helped but wasnt enough. I came back to the same negativity and almost quit. By the point we starting hearing about the possible shutdowns, I'd stepped out of myself and looked from a different perspective and decided to keep moving forward willing to keep learning whatever lessons I was supposed to until I got let go. Come to find out, that wasn't even on the table realistically. The day we were told about the shutdown, I was calm, relaxed while most around me were freaking out in their own way. We had a coach in that day and I believe it helped us all get through the uncertainty of that day - but what I'm thankful for was the peace I felt in those moments.

I cannot judge anyone around me, colleagues, former colleagues, related to me, or friend of mine, or their actions due to the pandemic. What I can say is that I've always been a little different - especially in relation to my colleagues. I don't wish any of them ill will. I do feel a few who were difficult did not deserve the plethora of time/chances they were given but that is a lesson in itself for me. To have patience to peel off the layers of someone, but also to know when it's not the right fit. I may never feel like I'm the right fit for Arthur Murray, but I believe Arthur Murray is the right fit for me for awhile still. I'm an All-Star in some ways, and I'm very much not an All-Star in others. That isn't hindering me anymore. It's a good thought this morning to come to.

For this year, I'm stealing a sentiment from one of my franchisees, Cari, who said this year is about Cleansing and doing away with not needed things. I realized I've been doing that for a lot longer than the last 20 months, it's just now at a higher pace. 

For my unknown future, I'm fixing one of my two problems: my left foot. The other problem, my right foot, has to wait. I'm doing everything in my power to prep for this major, yet minor inconvenience in my life. It's just bunion surgery with a little straightening of my toes (he knows there will be one, maybe two pins in my foot). But it can be the difference in me moving forward in lots of things in my future, or it will take me on a path that I can't see but have been trying to. Anyway, it is over time for it (and the three little growths around it are demanding that fact).

I'm keeping my future plans in sight; but it also good for me to just take it one day at a time. I need not worry about my future too much. I'm learning if I take care of the little things, even baby steps, the big things aren't so big and are much easier to handle.

I hope you are encouraged today, or find a few moments today to release anything you don't need to carry. Have a lovely day, week, and weekend!

Lots of love,

Tiffany 💋