Guiding/guarding, and Me!!!
I dog sat, cat sat, and house sat this weekend. It had been a very busy week and another emotional one. I think I did better in hiding it and guiding it (not just hiding, I promise), but I'll never be sure 100%. I had struggles with my attitude at times, but I also think I did better in not letting them get out of control, too much. I did make one slip up; one I didn't mean but the words came out any way. Every day is a day that I have to gauge almost every behavior I have, and that I'm not proud of most of them. And that's it, that's the thing right now for me: controlling what I can over a day. And every day is different in what is hard. Nothing really is the same kind of hard. I've said a few times to a few select people that I'm tired, but they misinterpret the meaing of tired. Its not a sleep, work tired. It's a "I'm having to watch everything I do, I say, I act because I'm really, really sad, angry, depressed" and it's all I c