Down but not out...

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So about midway through the day yesterday, my back gave out. Literally. I'd done some house cleaning and wasn't paying attention to what my body was telling me. Here are my "excuses":
Since about 2 weeks before the beginning of quarantine, I had established a healthier exercise routine. A small one but one nonetheless. Then quarantine happened and all I had was time. But knowing myself, I would need to do something outside to stave off what I already knew would be a "longer than what they were saying" time of sheltering in place. Hence, I started walking. About a month in I had worked up to being able to walk 3 miles before I knew I needed to stop. Then some stiff in my personal life happened and I was watching my phone for calls to help people in my life and not focused on my walks really. They became an after thought or way shorter. As things settled though, I got back to my daily walks and then added more consistent 20-30minute exercising daily. Then I upped it to 2 of those sessions and walking got up to 4 miles. Sounds great, right?!

Not so much. You see, sometimes you need to work through the pain because its superficial. But sometimes that pain is there to tell you to slow down or just wait a little bit. I took it superficially and focused on getting healthier a little too much too fast. I wasn't listening to all the little clues that I know tell me to slow down or stop and take a breath physically.

Cut to yesterday and today. My body did it for me. I was making progress and feeling better physically but wasn't happy how slow it was. So I challenged myself. Not the best idea. I can sit up now (still uncomfortable and less pain) but I was literally writhing with spasms as I called my boss to say I couldn't come in. I was so frustrated and felt so bad but as I told him, "I'm just being stupid trying to think I can come in" when I couldn't even sit up. So I called him and was honest. 

Today, I learned a lesson I should already know. Saturday ill go for a short walk and that is all. I'll keep my intention to keep my core engaged and committed to continuing to improve my eating habits. I need to go slow, as my Noni always said. Slow and steady wins the race. Lying on the couch not able to move much in 36 hours does not - no matter how fast you ran before.

Be smarter than me today and everyday.

Lots of love,
Tiffany 💋

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