$20.20

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That's what I just paid that was leftover after I booked a flight to San Diego with my voucher. In the post on Facebook about it, I asked good or bad?

Most would go to bad, and tell me not to go. But really it seems good to me. You see, though I've been a non-essential and was literally in my house/neighborhood for 3 months, I experienced personal positives instead of negatives. Some around me experienced negatives, but I actually experienced positives. 

Its not out of the question that despite what 2020 has thrown at us, that I will come out of it positively. The time sheltering in place may have been what we ALL needed to make the right changes in life and/or finally follow through on the changes that we need to make. I've seen people even go in pattern after pattern and only get to a point that "feels better," then they stop - and the process just starts over again. No follow through. I know that because I do it, too. But now I'm aware of it and I'm following through on things that matter most. I pray that we all break bad patterns and follow through with complete healing not just until we "feel" better as a positive extension of all this.

So this crazy year may end up being the best one yet - at least for me. No debt, retirement restart coming in August, loving truly what I do, about 2 months away from finishing an entire book, enough $ in my bank account to not worry daily, bosses I love to work for, students and colleagues that make me smile, the ability to give to others (and I end up getting back more), and more blessings too many to mention. So why do I ever go to the negative? I (and I'd argue that "we") have so much to be thankful for.

$20.20 or 2020 - a bad thing? I'm starting to see that it may just be the best thing - for all of us.

Lots of love,
Tiffany 💋

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